my anxiety eg fiddling, mumbling, gripping onto my own fingers/arms/wrists and scratching my thighs has progressed into sitting in silence, struggling to breathe with a horrible achy cry feeling in my throat and scratching my thighs until they swell and mark and throb
my depression eg my bad thoughts, the constant self criticism, the numbness has progressed into writing goodbye letters, isolating myself from my partner, family and friends and having a box of opened medication sitting in a box in the corner of my room waiting for the inevitable day/morning/evening to come where its finally too much