started self harming
suffering regular flashbacks of my abusive past
feeling isolated by my friends
wish my ex was here because he understands how i feel but i dont want to turn to him for help because he has moved on
my current boyfriend is amazing but so clueless as to what i need or want even though i try to reach out
half my family currently hate me because im the only rational person accepting that my grandma is terminally sick whilst they just call me negative and draining
nobody in my life at this moment understands how bad things are in my head so im just misunderstood for being a pessimist when im genuinely crumbling and all people expect from me is to pretend to be happy to cheer up and help everyone else
but nobody is helping me